Song 181

 Song 181

Hey everyone. 

Today’s song is called Caving In by No Silence. They are a fairly new band, and this song is just so beautiful, and so raw. Starting off with the intro, it starts off slow and very soothing to the ear. (quick note, this is the acoustic version. I don't know what the original version sounds like) The first verse: "I can tell there's something wrong, by the way you constantly fill the guilt inside my heart. Making it so hard to be, all the lies you fed to me. All the scars you left so deep, I don't know just what to do. I've been feeling lost, since you left me this way. Girl, you know I'm just a fool, a fool for you." I have felt lost, and I've felt like I don't know myself anymore. So this month I've been trying to figure it out, trying to get back in touch with who I am. I was a fool for love, and blinded. Which isn't a good thing. The chorus: "Cause I'm still caving in, oh God tell me that I'll be okay. Help me live another day. I'm caving in, oh God tell me that I'll be okay. Help me live another day." This part was just so beautiful, and I could feel the pain in his voice. The second verse: "Tell me, where'd you sleep last night? Tell me, why you lied to me. Does it make you feel alright, knowing that you're killing me. But I know that time will tell, if I'll ever break this spell." There's another part, which I think now was supposed to be the pre-chorus. Oops lol. That last part is true, it takes time. Healing takes time, you need to do what's good for you. The chorus repeats, there isn't really a bridge. But there is another line. "Think I'm lost without you." Okay, that part isn't true for me. Yes I've felt lost, but not in that way. Then the chorus repeats, three more times before it ends. This song is just so perfectly arranged, and I'm so happy I found it. It has really helped me get in touch with how I've been feeling. The vocals are also really smooth, and clear. I love acoustic versions of songs, they are just so powerful. Plus you can really hear the singer's voice, and I feel like they are just more personal. Okay, there is actually a bridge, my bad lol. But it's mostly just a phrase being repeated. There's also a slight change in melody. So yeah a really beautiful song, you should check it out. 

 And remember, you're never alone. Until next time happy listening <3 and be kind to yourselves. 

song 180

 Song 180

Hello everyone, welcome back to the blog. Today’s song. Is called Crazy by Farewell, My Love. Now this band has a lot of lore to them lol. I won't say everything, but I will say that they have had three lead singers! Which is pretty nuts, but I'm sure there's been other bands that have more than that. Now on with the review. 

The intro starts with some light singing, and drumming. They're singing "Na Na Na Na" Then the intro goes into the fun strumming of the electric guitar. And just before the song gets going, there's this awesome little note. Sounds like wailing. The first verse: "I think there's something, it's hidden deep inside. Am I breathing, or am I buried alive? And I can feel it, the fear that cuts like a knife. I pray that no one can see from the outside, voices in my head whisper that I'm okay. People all around me tell me I'm so strange, I can't tell the difference of the light and the dark." This melody is really fun, it's pop punk which I love. There's a little bit of a pre-chorus: "Hold me closer dear when I'm falling apart." Yeah it's short, but I had to add it in. The chorus: "I'm crazy, baby, please medicate me till I lose my head. I'm crazy baby, I'm the Jekyll and Hyde, crazy in your eyes tonight." I get what he's saying, I think he's saying that he's at war in his own mind. I can totally relate to that. And someone might mistake that for being crazy. The second verse: "It's closing in on me, it's in the air I breathe. That silent little voice that lies behind my teeth, it's in the pictures I take, the memories I erase. If I were you and you were me, what would you say?" That's something to think about, kind of like spend some time in someone else's shoes. The chorus repeats, then it's the bridge: "I will, I will wait alone. Inside my thoughts, I will never show. Which side of me I can control, woah. I will, I will wait alone. Inside my thoughts, I will never show. I'm as crazy as they come, I'm as crazy as they come yeah you know?" I think everyone has felt crazy at some point in their lives, especially when it comes to love. The song writing on this track is very well done, I can understand the story perfectly. Plus it's really fun. The music video is pretty cool too. The chorus repeats two more times, with no outro. Really cool track, you should check it out. And always remember the music video when a song has one. 

Until next time, happy listening. 

Album Review

 Album Review

Hello everyone! The title is correct, I am writing another album review! The album I have chosen this time around is by the newest band I just got into The Relapse Symphony! The album is called Shadows! So let us begin! 

Track 1-Embrace The Darkness

So this one is just an instrumental track, but I thought I would put it in here anyway. It's a really great introduction to the album, sort of a maloncholy sound. Really sets the scene for what's to come. That's all I have to say about this one. 

Track 2-We Are The Broken

This track is a full song, and the intro is awesome. It has that punk vibe that I love, with some backing vocals. An awesome guitar strumming pattern, and the drums hit the mark beautifully. This leads us into the first verse: "We are born of destruction, spitting fire is all we've ever known. We'll make you want to tear your eyes out, in a scene of devastation we're the jet black ghosts without it's bones. Strung out and sick of corporate radio." I love the vocals, their lead singer Bret is an amazing vocalist. And a fashion icon. I think the this first section is talking about not conforming to what other artists put out there, and giving the punk experience. The chorus: "We are, we are the broken. (Oh oh-oh) We are, we are the devil's favourite flame. We are never gonna be the same, we are never gonna live that way. We are, we are the broken. (Oh oh-oh)" This chorus is very catchy, and I like the message. I've felt very broken, still do. But I'm just allowing myself to heal, and good music like this helps. The second verse: "We're the new revolution, we are proud of the stories on our skin. Dismantled youth our walls are caving in, we make scars and wear ours cause nothing good comes from staying whole. We sing the violent refrain." Honestly that's kind of true, a lot of good content has come out of people that have gone through hard stuff. To see the light, you need to live in the dark for awhile. The chorus then repeats, with a little instrumental part after that. Followed by the bridge: "Paint these hearts in starlight and smoke, we won't back down we are the broken. Paint these hearts in starlight and smoke, we won't back down we are the broken. Paint these hearts in starlight and smoke, we won't back down we are the broken. No we won't back down." Yeah fight the power! hehe, but seriously love the context of this song. The melody shifts a bit with the bridge, but I like it. Sounds very dance like. Then the chorus repeats twice more before it ends. There isn't really and outro for this song, so that's it for this one. 

Track 3-Battlefield of Lies

Great title. The intro for this one is different, the melody is very much more guitar heavy. Which I love. Leading us into the first verse: "I kept chasing shadows down the halls, just trying to find myself. And I've been living lies to pass the time, turned into something else, unbreakable." I'm not sure how to comment on this section, but I do like the lyrics. Then we have the chorus: "I won't let go of the hopes I've carried, they'll stay unknown. Hopeless and buried. Hold your head up high, on this battlefield of lies. I'm singing I won't let go, this is the only way I know." I had some hopes I had to get rid of, because it's what was best for me. Even though it hurts, I know it was the right decision for myself and my well being. Then we have the second verse: "I've been stealing fire every dawn, just trying to light the way. And I've been hiding bombs in every song, the secrets my escape. Trading all my days for one more fight. Sweat and blood, I'll make tonight unforgettable." I don't know what to comment with on this section, but I do like how it's arranged. The chorus repeats, with no bridge on this track. There is however an instrumental part near the end. It sounds really cool, there's some shredding going on there. I freaking love shredding! Then the chorus repeats a final time, with a nice little outro. A little bit of a drawn out guitar note. 

Track 4-One More Yesterday

I love this song, the music video for this one is beautifully sad. Both music videos are actually, there's a music video for the acoustic version of this song as well. Again we have a bit of a different intro, already you can hear the main melody of this song. Like that. The first verse: "I'm hanging on to memories, of better days for you and me. Yeah. The summer nights, we tempted fate. Chased the morning light away, young and high. Alive and free." Just gonna leave this part alone, for you all to decide what it means to you. The chorus: "You're not breathing, I'm not sleeping. I walk this world alone, I've been screaming hands and knees, and now you'll never know. I don't care what, tomorrow holds. I give the ground my broken bones, for just one more yesterday with you. Whoa, oh, oh. I give it up, give it up all for you." This chorus is so catchy, I love it. In this sense, he's talking about someone that died. Because (spoiler) in the music video there's a funeral, indicating that someone has passed on. The second verse: "I'm writing you the songs I sing, until they swallow up the page. I should have done better when I had you, laying in the gutter beside me. Now it's last call with the madness you left me, but I can't seem to turn and crawl away." I'm just gonna leave this part up for interpretation. The chorus then repeats, with an instrumental part. Then the chorus repeats a final time, again there's no bridge. There's a soft outro at the end, little touches of piano keys. Sounds really nice, and a interesting way to wrap it up. 

Track 5-Make Your Move

Now, I already reviewed this song by itself. But this time it's part of the collective album, so I'm gonna review it differently because of that fact. My honest opinion, I think this fits in really well with the whole storyline of this album. Which is melancholy, punk, basically sad vibes. There is some sad aspects of this song, where they mention moving on, and wanting to go back to how things were. That has been the vibe from the beginning of this album. So yeah I think it fits really well, and is still a good track whether you listen to it on its own, or part of the album. 

Track 6-Savage Eyes

Before I dive into this one, I want to mention how I didn't really like this track at first. But after I listened to it a few times and found the music video, it grew on me. And now it's one of fav songs on this album lol. Okay, now we can get into the song. The intro on this one, is even more rock. If that makes sense. It has this raw passion, with the guitar and drums, and bass. They are all synched together really epically. That little extra wail that happens on electric is very much present in this. It's when the guitarist plays a chord, then shakes the guitar to get the sound to drag out more. It's so cool. So let's get into the first verse: "You play with fire like it couldn't burn your skin, you're tempting God with every damn you've got within your angry soul. You can't let go. You f**** with Jack and all his bottle kissing friends, you lost your innocence but can't remember when it all went wrong. Your faith got gone, baby, gone." I don't really know what to say about this part, so we'll move on. The pre-chorus: "You've got your crosses, you've got your pain. But something in your metal heart is driving me insane." I like this pre-chorus, I really love how it sets you up for the actual chorus. It draws you in, which is always important when writing anything. The chorus: "Woah oh oh, don't wanna be alone, woah oh oh. You put the spark in my bones, I think I love you baby. I think I wanna make you mine, my lovely sinner of the night." Very catchy chorus, the music video is also interesting. (Spoilers) There's Bret in black and white, with a screen sheet behind him. All these shadowy figures float past him, as he walks by. Which makes sense, since the album is called Shadows. The second verse: "You self destruct like, you've got gasoline for blood. You like it rough enough to prove that you are tough as a machine, it hurts so good. You've got this danger-high, you call it a disease. You live so fast that you could almost ride the road with me, we'd run so hard, we'd play for keeps." I'll leave this part up to interpretation, if you would like to do so. Now the pre-chorus changes slightly on this part. "You've got your crosses, you've got your pain. But something in your savage eyes, is driving me insane." The title of the song is mentioned in this part. Then the chorus repeats, and we actually have a bridge on this one. Only this part is whispered slightly, very cool. "Savage eyes, don't tell me lies. My sinner of the night, savage eyes don't tell me lies. My sinner of the night, savage eyes don't tell me lies. My sinner of the night." Then there's an instrumental part, followed by a repeat of the chorus. With a little extra lyrics thrown in there, but it really adds to the edginess. "Don't f******** make me." I like how it sounds when Bret sings this part, it's very pleasing. That's followed by more repetition of the chorus, and there's no outro. So the song just ends. 

Track 7-Walls

The intro to this song is just perfect! I love how it's arranged, and leads you into the melody. First verse: "Tell me, tell me what I did, to end up in a ditch like this. Losing faith in all I know. Dizzied up when the sun goes down, and making out with the tear stained ground. I'll get up, but I won't go home." I think here, he's talking about just how hard things can be sometimes. Whether it's physically, emotionally, or mentally. That's what I get from the tear stained ground part anyway. I'm sure other people might think something different. The pre-chorus: "Those lies from your mouth, cant cover the truth in your eyes." I love the vocals on this song, they're just so satisfying. The chorus: "So where were you, when I lost my mind. My walls came down, with all my pride. Our story is ending, and I'm done pretending. That blood and a name means one god***** thing." I like the message here, I wonder if he's talking about either a relationship that ended, or perhaps something family related? I'm not one hundred percent sure on that. The second verse: "You chew me up in your clinical hell and spit me out in your whiskey well, half drunk in your room all alone. I'm no hometown hero, just some gypsy zero. With no one but the streets to call me own." I'm not sure what to say here, so I'll leave that up to you guys. The chorus repeats, then we have the bridge: "The curtain is falling, and I'm walking away. Redemption is calling but, you're still in the way. So tell me, tell me what I did. To end up in a ditch like this." I like when some bridges, have a call back to previous lyrics. Then the chorus repeats again, but with a key change. I love key changes. There's an outro, and it's really nice. We have some nice strumming work, followed by the fading out feature. Very good track

Track 8-Angels Take Us Demons Save Us

This song is really good, the intro is really fun. Very fast paced, and satisfying to the ear. The first verse: "When I feel the danger kissing, everybody, every moment means more than every moment past. I promised I'd protect you from the terrible and treacherous. But never thought we'd meet the flames so fast." Sometimes things don't work out, simple as that. The pre-chorus: "So hold on tight to me, I'll get you through this nightmare tragedy." Please do lol. The chorus: "The bodies hit the ground, the sky is falling down. But I am in the twilight safe with you. While God and angels sleep, the demons are running free. But I am in the twilight safe  with you, a shallow grave for two." I'm not really sure what this means, but I love the melody of this one. I think it's fun. The second verse: "When madness sweeps the world and leaves the rest of us to burn, I'll take the worst and save the best for you. If this is how it ends for you and me and all our friends. There's nowhere I would rather be than here with you." Dang I wish I had something like that, it sounds so romantic. The chorus than repeats, and the bridge is just part of the chorus repeating. Then it repeats once more, and it just ends. 

Track 9-The Ghost That Got Away

The intro on this track, is very drum heavy. Which is fine, I think it fits really well. The first verse: "I'm wide awake, I'm breathing. But you've got your hands around my neck, thought I tricked you into feeling. But you never would confess, you're dead like naked winter." That's one I don't think I've heard before, there's been a lot of analogies about death. But this one is a first, I like it. I always appreciate good song writing. The pre-chorus: "Still I cling to you." It's short I know, but very effective at what it's trying to express. The chorus: "I'd do anything, you're a crutch, you're the only one. But time is everything, we've got it all, till we've all got none. It's a game we like to play, a little love, a little hate. I'd take it all for you, you're the ghost that got away." I relate to this in more ways than one, especially the ghost that got away part. I won't go into details with that, but I do relate to it. The second verse: "I'm fast asleep, I'm dreaming. Looking for the outline of your face, thought I found you in the picture. But it stutters frame to frame, you vanish, so romantic." I feel like that last part is supposed to be sarcastic. I could be wrong on that, but that's how I see it. The chorus repeats, than we have the bridge: "You used to keep the ghosts at bay, but now you haunt me in the worst f******* way." The bridge, has a whispering aspect to it. Followed by an instrumental part. The chorus repeats, and once again there's no outro. Really good track, fits in well with the rest of the album. 

Track 10-Forever Slowly

This is probably one of my favourite songs on this album, it's slow and makes you think. As well as get in touch with your emotions. It's just really beautiful. The intro, has already set it up as a deep meaningful song with the way the instruments are being played. The first verse: "Maybe I fell down to find you here, and light up your burnt down halo. And maybe I'm scared but I don't care, I'm ready to jump if you say so." There could be some attachment issues here, which I totally understand. The pre-chorus: "I define these nights, but you don't take my breath away." I don't really have much to comment on here, so we'll just keep going. The chorus: "I don't wanna be forever lonely, lonely I, maybe we can be forever slowly, slowly. Now it's you and me forever, up against the wall together now. Maybe we could be forever slowly." I just really love the tone of this chorus, and the melody is so smooth. The second verse: "Maybe you were toxic from the start, maybe I'm a sucker for danger. Maybe we'll fall, oh fall apart like shadows of lovers and strangers." Maybe, and maybe I was blinded by love, because I get emotionally attached, until I finally realized that it wasn't what was best for me. It can be a hard lesson to learn, when you're someone like me. Who loves too deeply. The chorus repeats again, with the bridge being screamed. "Now it's you baby, don't take my breath away." It's a short bridge, than the chorus repeats with a little soft first half of it. Followed up with an awesome guitar montage, then the chorus repeats again. There is a little bit of an outro, where the guitar wail draws out a bit. I like that. Really pretty song, highly recommend listening to this one. 

Track 11-Shadows

Here we are, the last song on the album. Another one of my favourites, both the acoustic and original. This is the original version though, and it's also amazing. I feel like it's a great way to wrap up the album, and the intro deffinitely has that end of show feel to it. It's like a last little bang, that still keeps you going right up until the end. The first verse: "I didn't see the darkness as it came, rushing like a rainfall over me. One second there was sun the next there was none, I didn't feel the pressure on my back. Like a vampire breathing down my neck, chasing me away from you and everything I ever loved." This might be the most deep song throughout the whole album, which is actually really cool. Since it's the last one. The chorus: "I never meant to let you down, but I'll never let them take me now. The dream is dust the deed is done, and I've got my hands around the gun. I never meant to play this part, and I never meant to break your heart. But here in the shadows we decide, either we're dead or we survive." That's true, we can decide what happens next with our lives. Whether it's after a heartbreak, or some other thing. As long as you're still on this planet, you can decide how you keep living. And find yourself again. There's a little instrumental part here, then it's the second verse: "I think you're getting close to seeing now, it's you and me against everybody else. And  I don't want to doubt that you won't make a sound. And I could pretend I was sorry yeah, and I could pretend that it hurts so bad. But everything I do, I'd do it all again." No comment here. Then the chorus repeats, and it's the bridge: "I've got a darkness deep inside, but here in the shadows I'm alive. So if you're looking for me just look straight down, it's here in the shadows I'll be found." I like this part, because sometimes it is the dark where you find yourself. The darkest points in our lives, can actually help us. As long as we don't stay there for too long, and eventually get back into the light. The chorus then repeats again twice more, and there isn't really an outro. But I still think it's a great way to end this incredible album. 

That is it for this review, I hope you consider checking this album out. The music videos too, because they are also amazing. Until next time, happy listening.  

song 179

 Song 179

Wow, almost at 180! I might just make it to 200 reviews before the end of the year! That would be awesome! This song is brought to us by my best friend who knows my music taste so well, thank you R for the song! *hugs* It's called Make Your Move by The Relapse Symphony, an American band, that might have broken up or some other reason because their last song was in 2020. But even though they haven't had anything new, doesn't mean they don't have good music. And this is a great song, that I'm so happy to share with you! So let's go!

The intro, is a really fun pop punk style set up. Only I wouldn't really call this entirely pop punk, maybe just punk. Because it doesn't really have that popness to it. I like the guitar, and the drums the arrangement is really nice. The first verse: "Looks like another black out night, no holding back so hold on tight. One thing this place has taught me, is how to go oh on. I'm feeling like the older I get, the more that I'd like to forget. Seeing you fall apart like this, I think I found something I'll miss." I really like the vocals on this track, it's very just rock type vibes. Mixed with the instruments and it's so fun, and cool. (Also if you've seen music videos of these guys, or found some pics of them they look awesome, if you haven't already heard of them. You should look them up, because their look is freaking sick!) The chorus: "If only I knew then, all the things that I know now. You can get through anything, everything works out somehow. I'd fight to win, no giving in. And I'm done wasting time, go on and make your move. And baby I'll make mine." They kind of remind me of Simple Plan a bit, which I like. Also that part about things working out, it's true. Sometimes things do work out. So don't lose hope. The second verse: "I had it all and threw it all away, never gonna be the same. The wrong side of the tracks, just always felt like home. All the friends I'll never forget, all the time we could have spent. I wonder what they're doing now, I wish I could go back somehow." There's some people that I used to know, I'd like to know what they're up to. Maybe some childhood friends, just to see how they turned out. But of course, you can't change the past. In all those time traveling shows and movies, every time someone goes back in time and tries to change the past. It always ends badly. So just live in the now, and let the past be past. (I know that it's hard if you have trauma, or PTSD/CPSTD but you can get through it, I believe in you) Then the chorus repeats. The bridge: "And I'm done giving in now, you won't get the best of me. And I'm moving on now, you'll see." It's a short bridge I know, but very meaningful. I need to move on from feelings that I've had for a long time, and it's been hard. But somehow I'm still friends with that person, because they still mean a lot to me. They're still my best friend, and I love that they're in my life. After the bridge, there's this awesome instrumental part. Electric guitar wailing in the best way. Then the chorus repeats two more times, with a little bit of an outro. It's a really track, and thanks again to R for sending me this song. :) 

That wraps up this review I hope you consider checking it out. Until next time, happy listening! 

song 178

 Song 178

Hello everyone, welcome back to the blog! I actually have some new material for you all today. The song is Lose Your Way & Find Yourself by As It Is! A new song from them! It's really good, so is the music video. So let's get into it!

Beginning with the intro, we have some nice strumming from an acoustic guitar. Very calming. Which brings us straight into the first verse: "I took a lot of time, to get a little bit steady. Cause when the high runs out, it's a long way down with a heart so heavy. I made a few hard changes, is this what being brave is?" I related to this song because of the message, which I will discuss in the chorus section. I just think it's very raw of Patty to express what he's been dealing with through this song, and it might inspire other people to do the same. The chorus: "Cause I never felt so brave, that January day I asked for help. You'll never be okay, until you lose your way and you find yourself." That last part is very true, I lost myself and I have been working to find the pieces of me that were lost. One thing I've let myself do is stim freely, it's been very liberating for me. Next is the second verse: "You're going to chase some dreams, and leave them in your twenties. You're going to let it hurt, cause it's how you're going to learn you're enough already. It all looks like madness, too close to the canvas." You do need to let yourself hurt, because whatever you went through was rough. I have some emotional trauma I'm working out, and I need to let myself hurt. I need to feel the pain, in order to get better. I know some people go numb, or get angry or whatever. But please don't be ashamed to feel, because your emotions are valid. Which includes anger. The chorus repeats, with an added verse. "So I'm screaming at the pain to go the f*** away, and haunt somebody else." There are days when it feels like this. The bridge: "There's a light on the other side, this time I don't wanna die. There's a light on the other side, this time I don't wanna die. There's still some spark in me yeah, there's still some spark in us yeah." This is absolutely true, no matter how much you're hurting, or how dark you may feel. There's always a light side to every situation. Patty's vocals have been really great all throughout this song, and I'm really happy that they're all back together. The part after the bridge, is a repeat of the verse first, slowed down. Then the chorus repeats, with some amped up vocals. There isn't really an outro, so I guess I'll end it there. 

That's it for this review, I really hope you consider checking this out. And please feel free to check out the music video as well, it's really great. (Spoiler) you can see the emotion in everyone's faces, especially Patty. I love that. See you in the next one! 

song 177

 Song 177

Hey everybody, welcome back! I know I just did a review yesterday, but writing really helps me mentally so I thought I would give you another one. Also it's my dad's birthday today, so happy birthday Daddy! Now on with today's review, I chose this song because it really explains what I've been going through from last month up to now. I have a hard time with my emotions sometimes, trying to figure out what they mean. Or just to figure out the exact emotion I'm feeling. The song is I Fell In Love With Someone I Shouldn't Have by Hot Milk (Yes them again, they're my hyperfixation right now lol) As the title says, I ended up doing this, and I got my heart broken twice. Dealing with the hurt, and the sadness, and just the overall pain. Has been challenging. I'm autistic, and when I love someone I love them hard. I give my all, but this just wasn't the best thing for me. I realize that now. I'm sorry to be so personal, it's just sometimes I can't get my thoughts out in any other way other than this. Okay, let's move on to the review, for real this time. 

There isn't an intro, so we'll just get into the first verse: "I fell in love with someone that, that I shouldn't have. I gave my heart to someone that, that I shouldn't have. Hey, you waste of space, don't show your face again. Or I'll mess you up and tell all your friends, I fell in love with someone that, that I shouldn't have, yeah." No comment on this section. There's an instrumental part before the next verse: "Waste my time on someone that, that I shouldn't have. I put my trust in someone that, that I shouldn't have. Went and let them in and they trashed the place, so I set fire to this car, you should've seen his face. You went and f***** with someone that, that you shouldn't have." I like how this is arranged, angry punk with a good message. It's the perfect break up song. The chorus: "Cause if I were you, I'd be running away. She is a girl with a temper, and something to say. And her heart's not a toy, it's a hand grenade. They say that love is a war and you'll never be saved. You better run, cause she's an atom bomb." I like the hand grenade part, I feel like my heart is like a hand grenade. No, my heart is not something to be played with. Even though it has been played a lot, and has gone through so much. Then there's an instrumental part again, followed by another verse: "I got lost in someone that, that I shouldn't have. Got in too deep with someone that, that I shouldn't have. I know you said that I'm bad, you wanna punish me. Won't get on my knees and call you d-d-daddy. You took everything I had, when you shouldn't have." But that's the thing right? I was super in love with this person, I had been since the beginning. Now, I'm just trying to pick up the pieces of my shattered bruised heart. (I realize how emo that sounds, but it's how I feel) Then the chorus repeats, followed by another instrumental part. Then there's an outro with some lyrics. "She don't need you now, she don't need you now. (I'm nothing but a teenage runaway) She don't need you now (I'm just a bad influence you want nothing to do with) She don't need you now. (Bad influence you want nothing to do with)" I like the references to their other songs in this part, that's very clever. And the "she don't need you now" part, I'm learning that I can do better. Even though part of me feels like I'll never find anyone who fully gets me, but right now my focus is healing my heart, and trying to feel okay again. The vocals and the melody, the rhythm, tone, and all the other pieces of this song are amazing. Plus it's edgy, it's punk, it makes you think, makes you feel. And it's catchy! A true masterpiece. 

Until next time, happy listening!  

And thank you to all ten people who read my last one, that's the most I've had in a bit. It means so much to me, and I appreciate you all. 

song 176

 Song 176

Hey everyone, welcome back to the blog! I thought I would do something a little differently, I usually write reviews about songs and albums that I like. But today, I'd like to do one that I don't really like. The song is Holy Visions by AFI, this is a band that I really like. But lately their new songs haven't been what I expect from them, of course this is all just one person's opinion. Some of you might like the new songs, and that's just fine. Now let's get into the review. 

I'm gonna start with the intro, now the intro sounds okay. Kind of reminds me of Creeper a bit. It's more of the arrangement that I don't like on this track, if it were set up better I think I would like it more. The vocals are alright, I do like Davey's voice but this song just isn't it for me. Also on the vocal part, it just sounds kind of distorted. I don't like how unstable his voice sounds on this track. It sounds like 80s rock but in a bad way, if that makes any sense. I'm also not a fan of the lyrics, mostly because they kind of sound jumbled up. The only words you can hear clearly are "Holy Visions." But I do have an auditory processing thing, so maybe it would sound clearer to someone else. Now at the end, the lyrics sound clearer. Probably because it slows down, as it gets near the outro. I found the lyrics, so I'll put them in now. "When the pen hides from my hand, it leaves me free to keep digging. Underground there is a man, ever glowing calling me home. Holy visions, holy visions understand. Holy visions, holy visions while in my left hand. Holding cheap beads, I'm going up and down. The rosary, holy visions. When the sun drops out of sight, it leaves me free. To flutter reckless, underground there is a girl, a glowing girl. Burning brightly, calling me home. Holy visions, holy visions understand. Holy visions, holy visions while in my left hand. Holding cheap beads, I'm going up and down the rosary. Lights, and nothing less. Catching up high, all around your neck. Sheep, beats, or sore scarlet. Catching up high, or drinks, all around your neck. Holy visions, holy visions understand. Holy visions while in my left hand, holding cheap beads, I'm going up and down the rosary. Going up and down the rosary. Holding cheap beads, I'm going up and down the rosary. Holy visions." Okay, now that I can see the lyrics laid out. I do like them, and the meaning behind them. But I think this all comes back to how the song is arranged, I need more rock less synth. 

That wraps up my first time, reviewing a song I didn't like. I hope you enjoyed it, and I hope my opinion doesn't effect your decision to listen to it. I will see you in the next one, happy listening! 

song 175

 Song 175

Hello everyone, welcome back to the blog! I have another song from Hot Milk for you today, it's called Candy Coated Lies, and it's the first song I heard by them! So let's get into it! 

Starting off with the intro, it sounds similar to a BMTH song. It has that heavy electronic vibe that new BMTH has brought recently. Very fun to listen to, and a very good set up. The first verse: "Just about done living this life, look at my face when you're talking to me, talking to me. Brought a blunt knife to a gun fight, words and phrases lock me in cages. I'm taking my time if it's alright. Hold the world up, but it's weighing on me, weighing on me. Watch it all fall from a great height, all these rats that are running races." I love the vocals on this song, because of how they break up the songs with the two of them. They sound really good together. The pre-chorus: "Stay away, you push me to the edge. I need a tidal wave to drown out all the pain in me." I also love the song writing on this one, the lyrics are really deep. The chorus: "Just about to break, I can't stand the taste of. Candy coated lies, these candy coated lies. Every day the same, driving me insane. Candy coated lies, these candy coated lies." The chorus is so fun, and catchy. It's become one of my stim songs, which is a positive. :) Next is the second verse: "You're killing my vibe for the last time, vultures up high started preying on me, preying on me. Take a step back to the broadside. Cause I'm not as brave as I'm letting on to be, losing my breath but I'm alive. Should have spent more time fighting for me, fighting for me. Making my way to the bright side, is there paradise?" I don't really have anything to say about this part, other than the harmonies they are awesome! Then the chorus repeats, bringing us to the bridge: "Talons digging deep down inside of me, holding this absentee, guilty and desperately." I like how the bridge is arranged here, I feel like this would sound really great live. The chorus repeats again, with a slight change in tone. Then goes on to repeat a few more times. I feel like sometimes we do have this deep seated feeling weighing on us, but the important thing to remember is not to let it keep you from living. There's no outro, the song just ends after the last repeat of the song. 

That's a wrap on this review, I hope you all have a good day. And I will see you in the next one, happy listening! :) 

song 174

 Song 174

Hey everybody! Welcome back to the blog! It's been kind of slow for new releases, but I think we might get more soon. Until then I have some songs are new to me, the first one I'm starting with is Split Personality by Hot Milk! They seem to be a duo group, from what I've seen in terms of pictures. They are also from Manchester in England, which is so cool. A lot of bands stem from there, and you know it just feeds into my love for the UK. So here we go! 

We start with the intro, which sounds very static like, and scratchy. But then gets more into the beat, with the guitar and the drums, as well as some electronic stuff. This brings us into the first verse: "I'm a sociopath with a little taste for ketamine, (Problematic with taste for dramatics) Manny got me wet, but it's never gonna get me clean. (Cinematic display of fanatics) Can I dissipate in an 808 state, where the love and the hate come as lines on a plate? Well, how do you choose when your brain's cut in two? Cause I've been seduced, making friends with the noose." I love the backing vocals on this track, they are very clean and scream in a perfect state. I like the song writing on this, only I think it's too early in the song to really know what's going on here. We jump into the chorus: "Sedate, I'm sick of being awake. So hold me down and put me in a sedated state, cause this split personality's the enemy inside of me." Oh, okay. That's why the song is called split personality, they feel like there's two sides in a constant battle inside their head. I wonder if this is how Geminis feel? Anyway there's a brief instrumental part, before the second verse starts: "I need a second or two for an inner revolution, (Mind's erratic, I'm trying to hide it) A nuclear nosebleed is never the solution. (Symptomatic of unhealthy habits) Spiders, they spread from the depths of my head. They scurry and whisper, they want to be fed. Push safety pins through my mouth for my sins, are my hands dirty now? Shall I bleed through my skin?" Ooh, I love cryptic lyrics like this! Especially if a message is hidden within it. They're saying how their mind is scattered, like spiders crawling around in there. I totally feel this, my mind wanders a lot. I'm an overthinker, I try not to be. But sometimes I can't help it. The chorus repeats again, then there's the bridge: "Hide my dark side, no one can tell. Chloroform me through this living hell, not in pain, it's the pain in me. So sing me back to sleep." I just like this part, that's all I have to say here lol. The chorus repeats three more times, then there's the outro which sounds really cool. It has that fading effect, that I've mentioned before. I just really like the fade, it's a nice way to slowly bring you out of a moment. 

That's it for this review, I hope you consider checking it out. I will see you in the next one, happy listening!