song 177

 Song 177

Hey everybody, welcome back! I know I just did a review yesterday, but writing really helps me mentally so I thought I would give you another one. Also it's my dad's birthday today, so happy birthday Daddy! Now on with today's review, I chose this song because it really explains what I've been going through from last month up to now. I have a hard time with my emotions sometimes, trying to figure out what they mean. Or just to figure out the exact emotion I'm feeling. The song is I Fell In Love With Someone I Shouldn't Have by Hot Milk (Yes them again, they're my hyperfixation right now lol) As the title says, I ended up doing this, and I got my heart broken twice. Dealing with the hurt, and the sadness, and just the overall pain. Has been challenging. I'm autistic, and when I love someone I love them hard. I give my all, but this just wasn't the best thing for me. I realize that now. I'm sorry to be so personal, it's just sometimes I can't get my thoughts out in any other way other than this. Okay, let's move on to the review, for real this time. 

There isn't an intro, so we'll just get into the first verse: "I fell in love with someone that, that I shouldn't have. I gave my heart to someone that, that I shouldn't have. Hey, you waste of space, don't show your face again. Or I'll mess you up and tell all your friends, I fell in love with someone that, that I shouldn't have, yeah." No comment on this section. There's an instrumental part before the next verse: "Waste my time on someone that, that I shouldn't have. I put my trust in someone that, that I shouldn't have. Went and let them in and they trashed the place, so I set fire to this car, you should've seen his face. You went and f***** with someone that, that you shouldn't have." I like how this is arranged, angry punk with a good message. It's the perfect break up song. The chorus: "Cause if I were you, I'd be running away. She is a girl with a temper, and something to say. And her heart's not a toy, it's a hand grenade. They say that love is a war and you'll never be saved. You better run, cause she's an atom bomb." I like the hand grenade part, I feel like my heart is like a hand grenade. No, my heart is not something to be played with. Even though it has been played a lot, and has gone through so much. Then there's an instrumental part again, followed by another verse: "I got lost in someone that, that I shouldn't have. Got in too deep with someone that, that I shouldn't have. I know you said that I'm bad, you wanna punish me. Won't get on my knees and call you d-d-daddy. You took everything I had, when you shouldn't have." But that's the thing right? I was super in love with this person, I had been since the beginning. Now, I'm just trying to pick up the pieces of my shattered bruised heart. (I realize how emo that sounds, but it's how I feel) Then the chorus repeats, followed by another instrumental part. Then there's an outro with some lyrics. "She don't need you now, she don't need you now. (I'm nothing but a teenage runaway) She don't need you now (I'm just a bad influence you want nothing to do with) She don't need you now. (Bad influence you want nothing to do with)" I like the references to their other songs in this part, that's very clever. And the "she don't need you now" part, I'm learning that I can do better. Even though part of me feels like I'll never find anyone who fully gets me, but right now my focus is healing my heart, and trying to feel okay again. The vocals and the melody, the rhythm, tone, and all the other pieces of this song are amazing. Plus it's edgy, it's punk, it makes you think, makes you feel. And it's catchy! A true masterpiece. 

Until next time, happy listening!  

And thank you to all ten people who read my last one, that's the most I've had in a bit. It means so much to me, and I appreciate you all.